Ironic !!!

You ask me where you stand in my life, after you have walked out of it.

You ask me whether you still strike a chord in me, after you have cut all the strings.

You ask me whether I can reach out to you, after you have amputated my hands.

You ask me why can’t you see me after you have shut me out from your life.

You ask me the questions which were answered by you long ago.

My dearest, one can’t suffer the legacy one leaves behind.

Of Radio and Life .

Everyday I have to commute from home to office and vice versa and the only companion I have during that time is my Radio ( apart from the Love Stories i.e ). I always wanted an Mp3 player but never got one but in hindsight it seems to be a good decision. Let me tell you why. I prefer radio to an Mp3 player because there is an air of unpredictability associated with it. With an Mp3 player I choose the songs, I know what to expect and most of the times I know whats coming next (ofcourse i am talking of a player which doesnt have Shuffle capability, but even if shuffle is on I still am limited to a few number of artists and songs), but the best thing about Radio is its Randomness, I dont know what to expect next at times a few stations never give me a clue as if which language the next song is gonna be. The songs and artists are unlimited, you get to meet new artists almost everyday and get introduced to good songs too. With an Mp3 player i can choose the songs i like, I am sure there wont be a song which will make me cringe but with radio you get a good mix there will be times when you will be like aaargh but the next will bring a bigger smile on your face, I guess this goes well with the saying that you need to experience evil to appreciate good. And with radio there are times when you feel like if at all that song comes up it will be great and the next thing you know is they indeed are playing that song and the joy you experience is boundless. I know its a simple thing but it can really brighten ones mood, it can really make one's day. The anticipation, the hope that the next song will be the one which you will love keeps you going.

This preference of mine says something about me too I guess. Its consistent with my affinity towards unpredictability in life. How many times I have thanked heavens for making life unpredictable, what fun would it be if I knew everything beforehand then there is nothing to look forward to but going through the motions. This explains why I like change in my life however unwelcoming it might be. This also explains why there is always a smile on my face even when i am leaving a place I have stayed for years or people whom i love because for me the uncertainty of future is what keeps me going. Tomorrow might be a freaky day, tomorrow I might meet new people, tomorrow I might visit new places, tomorrow I might meet that one special person, this hope makes life bearable and keeps ennui at bay.